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« on: January 26, 2017, 09:21:10 AM »
My presence on the internet is not much. This has become one of the few places where I do have a presence however. Despite not knowing as much as most here, it has been my pleasure to communicate with others. Even though I want to become a different type of "Internet Marketer" where I am not always thinking about money or how to get or make money, yet would like to have something coming in from sharing innovative marketing products with others such as we find here (and even though I still don't know how to fully access PLR's, etc. due to my Autism which I know I shouldn't use as a crutch why I can't... but I still haven't fully "gotten it yet" or done it successfully so I can).... nevertheless I am leaving a written record here because I regard the people who have given me positive feedback and answers as my closest thing to "friends" I have on the internet.
For the past 2 months even though Salt Spring is like the Hawaii of Canada, nevertheless it has been freezing here as well, with temperatures this Winter ever since Fall, the majority of the time below freezing. I am already living in sub-standard housing ever since I was evicted from the last place I lived for complaining about 2nd hand cigarette smoke in the building. I already had a workshop here I was renting for $100 a month, but when I became evicted and had no where else to go, they let me live in my workshop. Suddenly I was paying $400 for the same place, but having to live here without any running water, no hot water, no real bathroom, no real kitchen, cracks in the walls and places near the ceiling where there were no walls anymore so cold air can come in, etc. The landlord insulated the back room a bit, plus there is mice and rat infestation everywhere. They did not want to pay higher electrical bills, so cautioned me I'd have to use my propane heater inside to stay warm with that I had. This is how it's been for 3 years.
However, everybody has their pet peeves. The landlord would periodically enter my place without permission and confiscate anything of mine I owned if he thought it used too much electricity in his mind. He wouldn't tell me he had. I'd have to figure out for myself if something went missing. I asked him please not to do that anymore, be he hasn't listened to me. Recently he added a computer room to their house I run a cord from 300 feet away, which unfortunately is drawing from the same breaker my power is coming from, so I now have less. Ever since he did that, when my electricity goes out if it is my fault (running the toaster and microwave at the same time for instance), all I had to do was press the button on my power bar for my power to be restored. No so anymore. Their power goes off in his wife's computer room he made for her. That only happened once or twice and recently I had to ask them to turn the power back on?
Saturday, I was told because their power "went off," I had to be "punished" so they were turning my power off for the day and perhaps longer to "teach me a lesson" (relayed to me by their daughter). I have already been living in sub-standard housing for 3 years now. This Winter has caused me to lose access to the internet the majority of the time, even though I've wanted my presence here to be more. On a regular basis lately, the power has been going off and on for a flash, you never know when and I never know why? Although it is not my fault because I am not doing anything different and not using any more power than I should for normal purposes, I am being suspected by the landlord of using an electric heater. I have a counselor who gave me her electric heater to use in an emergency if my propane heater ran out of fuel or stopped working, that she insisted I take quite some time ago. I've never used it, even though I get dizzy when I use my propane heater if I have it on for long and even though I've heard it is unhealthy to use indoors and I could die if I fell asleep with it on. I obtained a wood stove for free sitting outside of my cabin, but my landlord refuses to help me take out the defunct wood stove here or to let me install my wood stove in here, even though he formerly said I could. As a result, I am forced to use my propane heater inside, which is dangerous and my health feels already affected by due to constant burning in an enclosed space I have to breathe and it being made illegal by the landlord for me to use an electric heater to warm myself up with (which isn't dangerous to my health).
Yesterday my landlord barged in again without asking, insinuating I was using an electric heater. I told him I hadn't, that I use my propane heater to keep warm with and he touched it. It felt cold. He was demanding to know where I was hiding my electric heater! He snooped around in my place I'm living and didn't find what he was looking for, so said he would be coming to my place tomorrow and if he still suspected I am using an electric heater, he would turn my power off for good! If he does that, I won't be able to see during the day very well and especially at night without any lights! I won't have internet access anymore which is already slight due to the Winter Weather and inconsistency of my internet connection which is unstable at this time. Any time now the weather will dip below freezing again and I'm already finding it difficult to survive. I'm afraid if he cuts my power off for good, in which I'm already suffering due to lack of amenities most people have but I no longer do, my odds for survival may dip below what is normal and without power to rely on (not able to use my microwave or an electric heat pad to help me keep warm in my bed when blankets "don't cut it" when it is clearly below freezing.... life is going to become unbearable for me)! I don't know what to do? He insists I'm using an electric heater and yet I answered honestly I was not. Is it abusive for a landlord to cut your power off in Winter when it is near or below freezing? Can they legally do that because they want to? Especially "to punish me?" If he's not believing the truth I tell him (I've taken my counselor's heater and hid it inside my van even though I never used it, thinking if he found it, he would think he was "right" when he wasn't), that I'm not using an electric heater but only my propane heater (even though in my mind I would like to tell him I have the right to use an electric heater if I wanted to like most people do and there's not anything he could do about that and it's not a crime).... I feel I have to appease him and do what he says or he cold or might turn violent. Nobody knows what is happening to me. I won't be able to communicate with the outside world if he does that... (turns my power off) because I have no landline phone.... I use my gmail account with a microphone to make phone calls. I won't even be able to call my mom in California anymore. My propane heater (a Mr. Heater screwed on to a propane tank), doesn't heat up my place.... only me if I stand near it and I can't stand near it for long without becoming dizzy or shallow breathing). I don't like using it. Sometimes it is scary to use. He cut a little hole out of the wall saying it is now safe to use inside (but the hole is the size of a mouse hole). I don't want to keep using my propane heater for heat, but have no choice. I want to use a woodstove but he won't let me put it in and it's rusting outside. I want to use electric heat over propane, but he won't let me. I do not believe in abuse, abusive relationships, etc. and haven't any money except my disability cheque. $375 goes towards shelter and $25 for the internet. If he won't believe me I'm not using an electric heater tomorrow and turns my power off because he "suspects" or is "suspicious" I am using electric heat and blames the power surges we are experiencing since his re-wiring of his wife's computer room using the same breaker my power comes from for my mis-use of the electrical load on my end when I am not doing anything different from before but I get the blame instead of his own re-wiring job.... does anyone have any advice? If you do not hear from me again either because he might be violent and hurt me or because he turns off my power and thus my internet access, I appreciated communicating with everyone!
Paul Beckman
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